Was really sooooo boring today in class...for the 1st time, I felt that my friends are boring and church friends are so fun...Man...I really need to paint "FUN" into their lifes...
Well, recently I heard about someone who wanted to do a hamster house made of ice cream sticks...on my way back home I thought of doing the same...it would be s0 c0Ol!
I'll accept any unused ice cream sticks in working condition Donations! Contribute to the MHUP! (Maki House Upgrading Project)
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Monday, November 13, 2006
8:20 PM
Wow...23 years old now...also marks my 5 years walking with Jesus(Nov 11)...Got a warm surprise from my cell group members...I mean WHOO! Finally something unexpected! I got a box full of greetings from every member!
One of them reads: From Foe>friend>Brother...haha I'll never forget this foe turned friend...he never hated me but it was me...I was jealous of him...
That time, I was pushing myself to become a cell group helper...do this do that, been here done that, taken picture. Everything on the surface seems nice...except...my walk with God is in a mess. I never realised it, I thought I was the next potential helper to be. He came, was serious with God. The place was given to him instead. I never understood why was he picked instead of me...Jealousy enlarged and envelop my eyes from seeing the truth...I never knew that works will never draw you near to God...
Nevertheless, after that God send me in circles over and over again(few years...)....just recently I finally got tired(who wouldn't?) I focus on what I never focused before: To draw near to God...I just came before God and cried: "I feel like a broken sword...I lost my cutting edge, no matter how many times I cut, I couldn't make an influence in this society anymore......
"I am just a broken sword...Would You give me another chance again? To be wield by You again..I am willing to be grind, forged, go through the fire...as long as I can be a sword for You again...a sword that can cut...and make an impact in this society..."
After that things really started to change...the foe that was already a friend, now become more like a brother to me...suddenly I got the opportunity to even serve more in the cell group...God didn't give up on me...he was waiting for me...waiting for me to let go....and let Him...
Funny...I actually thought I reached...recently I realized this was just a beginning... a brand new begining of my walk with God again...
Oh did I mention on my way back home I was back at the exact spot where I nearly killed someone in an accident? These words came earlier in the moring: "You are already forgiven...move on"
I did :)
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
