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PROFILE ;


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Feng Guanjin
A.K.A Peter
Clueless Guy
12/11/1983
Island of Singapore
Christian (11 Nov 2001)
Water Baptised on 9th Nov 2005
Temasek Poly
E-mail/ MSN: gjfeng@yahoo.com
(please state who you are ^^)

DESIRES;

Working With The Holy Spirit, bringing the reality of Jesus into our world
My parents and friends to receive Christ
If it were possible...draw me away...I just want a simple life...
But for You...a thousand times over...

TAG MI;

LISTEN;

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FRIENDS;

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Alex's Blog
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Jiasin's Blog
Michelle's Blog
Enling's Blog
Yating's Blog
Glenn's Blog
Karen's Blog
Samuel's Blog
Jon Teo's Blog
Andy TAKUMI's Blog
My Old Blog

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Saturday, December 30, 2006
7:08 PM

yea...just 1 more day and the year ends...

just...alot of things on my mind now...mabbe i'll update later...

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Thursday, December 28, 2006
11:50 PM

man...this wheather is driving me crazy! Rain and keep raining! So much water! It can convert singapore into a swimming resort in a week! And I caught a cold! I am coughing at a rate of 10coughs/min and nose flooding like an open tap!

~_~....I wanna get well soon!!! (!_!)

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Monday, December 25, 2006
6:11 PM

Was at the carnival today playing the sant@! Initially I was accepted grudingly in my heart(oh...me again...last year I did and this year it goes again...) then while I was doing...we sant@ can do something amazing...

Brighten up someone's life! Bring a smile to someone! Make their day!

Just like last year, I did see some people at the carnival...wearing a sad face...seems to be alone...maybe no one came and celebrate with them? Maybe they are holding much disappointments that's preventing them from enjoying the season? So here I am, going up to them, saying "Hello, Merry Christmas!" and there you go, made another person "Brighter"

This joy to make someone's day...no wonder the bible says "It is better to give than to receive"

So...Hello & Merry Christmas! ^^

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006
1:07 PM

Man so lazy...so sleepy...i woke up and I went to sleep again...i didn't feel like doing anything...

Com'on guanjin keep going! Be strong! Be an effective labourer in the harvest field! GOGO!
WAKE UP ALREADY, GUANJIN!

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Monday, December 18, 2006
11:21 AM

well...i mentioned earlier it was 2 hrs earlier before I go down to church right? I fell asleep again! When I woke up it's already 8:30am...I told myself not to make another stupid mistake again! So when I woke up I was like "!!!!!" & "......"

Throughout the journey and before I stepped into church...my heart was like shattered pieces of glass and I felt I don't even have the strength to lift my finger...in fact I don't even feel like going to church at all! My spirit was dragging my flesh along...

"STOP HAVING THE KIASU CHRISTIANITY!!!" I felt it shouting directly into me...I was! I hate to lose, I hate to fight losing battles, I never fight to lose! What's the point then? I always fight to WIN! I hate mistakes, I DETEST them all!

So that was the problem...I ended up never trying anything...

"Everything we do, there is no garantee of success" "Strength is found, not in victory, but in the capactiy to accept failures"

There I was, kneeling before God and rivers of tears flowed...thanking God that now I realize even God can accept our repeated failures...how can I not be thankful?

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Saturday, December 16, 2006
10:29 PM

Just made a few stupid mistakes again...

I just dunno how to get out of this mess...what I really hate about myself is out of my stupid mistakes others have to clear the mess for me...I did it once...ok...i'll correct myself...but this have been repeating again and again...over a few years! I mean what the hell? How many more mistakes must I make before I'll really learn? This is TOTALLY stupid and unforgiveable!

I let God again and again and all over again! I really feel like taking a metal pole and hit my head till I wake up my idea. How long will it take for me to learn? how long will I ever stop letting God down? when will I ever stop so that others will not clean up my mess?

I want to quit, yet I cannot quit...I want to quit because there's a limit in my heart to let people and God down...I couldn't bring myself to make another dumb mistake again. Yet I cannot quit because I never want to let God go no matter what! I'am just stuck inbetween this two...I really wish I can get an instant answer...I know there is no instant solution...but at least I must know something to make sure I don't repeat this again....I mean, I don't wanna be an idiot again.

I really lost...I dunno what to do...the only solution I have left is to pray...seek God...mabbe there's something God has for me....


*Update*

4am now...2.5 hrs later gotta wake up and queue for the service...ahh well...just come before God....and felt that I got reminded....didn't I ask to be a sword for God? To be willing to be forged, hammered and go through the fire...to think I was so childish and kept on complaining...well...gotta learn...

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Friday, December 15, 2006
12:01 AM

during my trip to shopping...found it really meaningful...it simply says...

"This race is run by faith, won by grace..."

Think about it! ^_^

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Wednesday, December 6, 2006
12:41 AM

I just can't wait to share about this...

Today I was attending my PBL ESD (problem based learning electronic system design)... So our dear SIR give us a paper...and behold! I was totally dumbfold!

I mean like...what the? I've been here for past 3 months and I couldn't attempt even a question? ....I read my notes....then the questions....(rinse and repeat...)...I rest my head on the table then I prayed...(what choice do I have?)

And I continued what I did before....I read my notes....then the questions....(rinse and repeat...) I still couldn't get anything! Then all of sudden I was able to attempt the questions like a genius! It's as if God flip a "become-smart" switch on my head!

At the end of the lesson I was totally amazed....(who wouldn't?)

Today's prayer meeting is just awesome! I got a chance to even further improve my spiritual stamina(Usually I don't last long)...and my prayer in language(I seem to always get stuck)...

Keep going! End this year well! I'am gonna age and die happy!

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

Tuesday, December 5, 2006
12:41 AM

I'am really really busy juggling my work, assigments, project, christmas, friends, school...I'll just do a small update by letting u readers(yes...thank you) read my work (yes, please be thanful)


Every morning is the same routine for me…waking up, struggling to get out of my beloved bed…always wish I could sleep 5 more mins, followed by brushing my teeth which feels like running many cars through the car wash. Then came the breakfast…where the rule of every morning is “No one gets out alive until breakfast is finished”

After surviving the first 3 courses, I finally come to the final lap: The morning rush

The final lap earned its name well…it’s only when the going gets tough, the tough gets going…it’s a race without mercy…any poor creature in the way of the rush will simply be overrun…leaving footsteps of destruction behind…all these for the great grand prize: To board the bus

And the runners in this rush are very well disciplined and self-motivated! Motivated by the time and the constant howling “I’am late!” in their minds and the endless flow of buses zipping by…Crazily chasing after a big dead metal object. They gave their all in this race; it’s all or nothing at all!

The results of their hard work are exciting indeed: Missed a bus? “O I wish I woke up 5 mins earlier” “O I wish I could run faster” ”O that bus should have waited for me for another [inset number] secs”

On the other hand, the winners…they have nothing much to say…since they are completely immersed and in awe of their great accomplishment. Standing head and shoulders all above all, they completely forgotten those who missed the bus.

Knowing how merciless the race is, something bothers me a lot…one of the racers is…

Me.

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...