It was the roughest patch in my life.....yes many of you wondered why I was acting strange in my blog? I said, I missed it.....and wished I didn't take it for granted.....
I was thinking all the while should I share this....it'll be very very long story. Besides I'm still fighting it....Just for now I'll say it's something that really really means alot of me. More than I value my friends, money and even myself. I guess I'll be sharing soon.....besides it's 2am already...bloggers do need sleep right?
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
12:24 AM
You know what? Out of all the bible verses. there's a person who isn't very significant. In fact he is lame(no, I mean really lame on the legs) yet because of I was impressed by his great attitude!I wish I could be like him! His name is Mephibosheth, read about him below:
So the king said to him, “Why do you speak anymore of your matters? I have said, ‘You and Ziba divide the land.’” Then Mephibosheth said to the king, “Rather, let him take it all, inasmuch as my lord the king has come back in peace to his own house.”
See that? He was cheated by his servant of his land. He didn't demand his rights to the land, even though it is rightfully his! He said, "Let them have all! I'm just content to have YOU!"
Read further about his gratitude:
For all my father’s house were but dead men before my lord the king. Yet you set your servant among those who eat at your own table. Therefore what right have I still to cry out anymore to the king?”
Back to what I really want to say. Seeing people around me driving big cars, having the $$ to spend where I couldn't. I was filled with envy and jealous of them! There's nothing really wrong desiring greater things, don't get me wrong! But really, I got so filled with self-pity, I didn't thank God for what He has given me! Shouldn't I be content and thankful for what He has given me already? He already given me a parachute to jump off the plane and land safely. Can I say He's a bad God, because I asked for a different color parachute? Or packed food so I can eat when I land? Or a change of plans becuase I don't want to jump?
He's already given me a parachute. It's enough. That's His grace. To be given more (which we always have), is GRACE UPON GRACE.
Now I realize...I have You! I got more than enough. Even if you don't give me more when I ask. Thank You for what You have given me!
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Monday, June 18, 2007
4:04 PM
In every course of a race, there is bound to be resistance. You may not always get top standards for running. Unless it's a arranged one. Wind, rain, water puddles, wet grounds, crack grounds, barriers, mouse traps, banana skins...they break your run, cause you to fall and injure (mouse trap...ouch!)
Regardless of how hard you fell...You just got to keep running. You quit the race, you lose the prize altogether. You keep on going, eventually you get nearer to your goal. You may lose the prize (Top 3 winners only), but at least you finished the race.
I'm tired...I stubbornly step on the mouse trap again and all over again...I knew it was there, but I refuse to change course. Foolish aren't I? Whatever...just keep going....
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Sunday, June 10, 2007
6:37 PM
Man I just blew my chance....I was so close.......then I took it for granted....I blew my chance.....left me......now I cannot find it back anymore....
Man....how dumb and foolish can I get? So dumb so foolish, I couldn't stop blaming myself for taking things for granted. Now I pay a price that I could never recover...
For those of you reading this post. Just remember, never to take even the littlest of things for granted. Because some things, once you lose it....you'll forever end up in regret like me...
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
