Thursday, November 15, 2007

No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

O...so this is night terror....really frightens me like a poor little hamster. I never felt so frightened before...I have no problems running alone at night, I've no problems enduring through a horror movie, but this scares me like crazy. I nearly wanted to call everyone possible on my handphone.

I notice it never really changes, it's usually the same( or change abit here and there)....Bo creativity one.

Very long ago, I had this dream where I was running and being chased by a ?(yes I don't even know what it is)...I just keep running. I remember I tried to call out the name of Jesus, but I wasn't able to. It came out funny words instead. I felt really helpless against this supernatural force against me. Sometimes in a loop, I would 'wake up' and be in this dream again! Never getting out!

Today, I woke up in bed. I saw myself floating in the house supernaturally yet unwillingly. This force against me...I tried to call out the name of Jesus again...again funny words came out! Then I woke up! I thought whew....then I realise I wasn't out of this dream yet! again, it repeated again! Until lastly, I dared the spirit to kill me, I was forced and floating outside my house (I remember asking my mum to call out of name of Jesus to save me...but she kept quiet...before I flew outside my house). I knew I was dead for sure...I remember saying "If You don't save me...then...my greatest honor was to serve You my Lord..." ...then I fell...12 storeys down...

finally I woke up...I was too frightened to even pray. Even now, a spoon dropping on the floor would send me running! I'm writing this as a memory, to fight this battle again if need be.