Friday, July 4, 2008
11:48 AM
Due to amounting pressures by my fellow brothers and sisters to update...this is to wet your appetite.
Well, I've been playing computer games (heroes of might and magic, diablo), rested quite well, played into midnight. I was in my past, returned to my past. A past that I should have let go, a past that I should not have returned to.
It has been for a week already.
Sounds like I have a good rest huh? Quite the opposite, I've to compromise alot of things along the way - exercise, work, studies, ministry, family, even my daily meals, I ended up even losing the closest friend I ever have.
Computer games is really my Achilles heel. Once I pop, I never stop. Nearly everyone I know can asert self-control in this area. How I wish I can do the same! Must my weakness and what I like match like a couple? I gotta find something else to replace this old habit of mine.
Some things that haunted me for years and I never understand - Like the children of Israel out of Egypt, they longed to go back! Once I broke free of this habit for nearly a year, I went back again! Knowing it was wrong! WHY? I'll never understand WHY!
Well, I finally decided today this is going to end. Going to restore back what I lost. Of course there are certain things that you could never recover, trust broken is one of the hardest thing to restore.
Well...let's move on from here...
Oh...I forgot to add:
Yesterday I got an sms from one of the teachers handling my kids.
"Well done! My kids say they love you! You made difference in their lifes!"
That made my day, that was the trigger that turned me away from my computer games.
Power in encouragement? You bet.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
