Sunday, July 6, 2008
3:33 PM
Standing & Falling
As I was walking along this long road to a beautiful place where I call home
As I walked, I saw some people by the side, they have no place to go to.
Some were depressed, some were stressed, most of them look ok.
Having compassion on them, I offered "Come, let's go to home together"
Some followed and some replied "It's okay, you go ahead"
So now we walked together
we were glad to have company
we are just happy to be able walk together
We often shared what are we going to do when we reach home
We often shared how we are going to encourage more people to join us
Sometimes we fell
Either because we trip or got distracted and look sideways
We helped each other up, tend the wounds and moved on
Encouraging each other we are walking closer to home
As we walked on
Some gave up because the journey was too long
Some gave up because they fell too many times
Some gave up because they find the sideways more interesting
Some gave up because there was a lack of company
Some gave up because there was no one there to tend their wounds when they fell
Some gave up because it was less tiring to stay than to walk
Most walked on without encouraging others to join us
So I puffed up my chest and moved on
Critical of their actions, in my heart saying "they shouldn't have done this"
I thought I was right.
I was really right! They got it all wrong and messed up!
Rather than to encourage them to move on
I kicked and toss them aside, critising them "you should have known better!"
It was the truth and it did set them free
But I hand them in a way like a bowling ball and force them to swallow it down
It was so hard to swallow, most of them never returned
I should have handed the truth to them like pieces of fishball
It was a point of no return
No amount of words or prayer could return them back
They remember the details with their mind
And bury it with their heart
People follow you home easily while they are young
It was easy to encourage people to follow me home when I was a youth
It was alot harder now, because as people grows older, they are set in their ways
I should have done the right thing then
And not waited until now
If anyone walking with me were to critise me and said "You deserve to die for what you've done!"
With tears in my eyes, I would reply "You're right."
"That's why today I'm writing this to people reading this so that no one would make the fatal mistake like I did"
Today, I fell. In fact long enough for maggots to grow and infest my wounds.
But I didn't get treated like what I deserved: Condemnation
I would give a final reply "I got what I never deserved"
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
