Sometimes looking at the helpless situtation I'm in...
I really want to give up...only to look back and found the door shut. And being reminded again it is me who choose to go the narrow way. It's really so narrow...I can't even shift a little to the left or right!
If there's a story in the bible that can describe my currrent situation, I would say it's james and john.
Me: hahaha.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
1:31 PM
I realized people define poor very differently.
when they cannnot watch movie
When they cannot go overseas
When they cannot catch a concert
When they cannot eat
When they cannot buy a notebook
When they cannot buy their favourite things
Sometimes when people complain to me that they are poor(all above), I nearly wanted to burst out and tell them "You do not really know what poor is"
Today is a great example. I wanted to eat, but I couldn't. I couldn't even pay for my transport. 0 to my name. $10 left in bank account and can't draw nor top-up my card. Man, I'm so poor I nearly wanted to cry when I looked at my situation.
Of course I got an super easy alternative to take $ from my parents. But NO! I'm never gonna do that again!
Man shouldn't live by CONVENIENCE, but CONVICTION.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Sunday, March 23, 2008
3:00 PM
Have you ever come to a point that is painful to believe? I started, I believed, I kept going, I kept trying. I believed, tried and failed, I believe again, tried again and failed again. Even I kept going.
It's so painful to believe now.
I've learn to smile through multitude of FailureS and DisappointmentS.
The pain is multiplied when I have to give up something I love alot in order to move on. This thing I love at the same time is my achillies heel. Can't I have the best of both worlds?
Let's keep trying again, guanjin. I'll believe even if it is painful.
Whatever I have today, I owe it to You.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Saturday, March 22, 2008
1:44 AM
Try out this online game. Requires no download and it's a low-committment level game! Best suit for busy people like me! Give it a try!
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
1:22 PM
I'm currently working under H.P attached to YCMS (Go google if you dunno). I happen to work in singapore boy and gals home. I feel at ease when i'm at boys home. I got really uneasy when I step into the gals home.
I mean they gals over there stare as you and occasionly shout "Yan Dao!". Their stare is not the usual stare, they stare at you as if you are the last living Adam on earth!
For other guys this may be EXACTLY what they want. I like attention but this is kinda way overboard. Due to this motivation, I finish my work faster than usual and skipped my lunch.
Tat's all about me for now. For my spiritual life, I think my own altar is utterly destroyed. I need to build it back again.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
1:39 AM
Man....was served another load of french fries....
Well the more I eat the fatter I get
I'll grow fat till I crush Sa-tan flat flat
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Sunday, March 2, 2008
2:17 AM
Since ages I last posted right...?
Been going through alot of hard knocks.
One knock after another
One set back after another
One failure after failure
I was REALLY expecting a success or breakthrough after each setback! Really!
I got a few setback that lasted in YEARS!
I got so much of it, it's like french fries to me now.
Success has become an unfamiliar word.
Now I'm just wondering, how many more and how much more?
No don't get me wrong. I'm not giving up! NO WAY I'm GONNA GIVE UP!
If God has given me one thing...I would say...
He made me invincible(coming back after each setback)
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
