I receive news that I'll once again be driving again in my friend's car...
I still remember the time I came into accident, I saw blood....
I just can't shake it off my mind...
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
1:21 AM
What was painful to me is painful no longer...I'm still getting nearly equilvalent hard knocks. It's no longer that painful anymore, in fact I'm handling quite well.
I learned an important lesson from my leader whom I'm serving as a armor bearer.
Everyone can start well, yet not all can end well.
I'm such a great example of that. A strong word, and whoo I'm all and excited. When it becomes a valley of dry bones...then boo...so dry? bye bye God
No breakthrough after endless FASTING and Praying? bye bye I give up on friends
No longer exciting to come to church, and so I take off
Now I see and realize, after knocks, bitterness, dryness, unfairness, heavyness, injustice, being wronged. Few are willing to go that far to believe.
No wonder God gave the promise that those who endures to the end will be rewarded.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
12:21 AM
When I boss revealed today was my last day of work...I was kind of relived, at the same time with mixed feelings
Did I leave an impact behind?
Did I show how a christian is suppose to be?
Was I a blessing to them?
Have I been a burden than a blessing?
When they gossip about people who quit earlier, will they gossip about me when I leave?
I missed alot of lunches with them. I only had 2 lunch appointments with them out of the 8 chances we got. I really want to stay with them for every lunch appointment and know them more. I really got $0 to my name, and no other means of finances other than borrowing (I HATE DEBT!!!) and getting from my parents(NO WAY!). I couldn't bring my mouth out to tell them "Hey, sorry I can't join you for lunch, cos I got no $". I was suppose to be a blessing, not a burden...that's how I justify myself. If I really got more than enough, I would certainlly sponsor them every lunch appointment we have.
Hmm...I'm really thinking too much. I'm suppose to make do what I have, and not always complain about what I don't have.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
12:10 AM
When I read the beginning in the book of Acts I'm always very excited. When I hear and read about the charismatic movement that started close to a century ago, I get excited and at the same time puzzled.
Why couldn't we do it the same today? Why couldn't we do it for the same in my school? I still remember few mths ago, everyday during my lunchtime I would never stop praying for the school from monday to friday. What are we still lacking? Consistancy? Fervency? Passion? Hunger? I didn't knock enough before I gave up?
Will I see it before I leave this school? Or will I be part of the fading pictures in history?
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
