Had an interesting conversation with my attachment friend today. We were talking about how our thinking shaped through this attachment.
I was saying that what I've gone through in sch for the past 2 years is nothing compared to 2 mths I'm attached to this company. I was really amazed that 2 full years of education is really nothing! It is really only this 2 mths of attachment really shaped my thinking. From here, I got a revelation.
From today on, it is a challenge to me. TO bring the reality of Jesus into our world. How can I do it in a way that my friends know not only theory, evangelise to them in a way for them to personally encounter God? Have you asked yourself this before?
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Sunday, July 6, 2008
3:33 PM
Standing & Falling
As I was walking along this long road to a beautiful place where I call home
As I walked, I saw some people by the side, they have no place to go to.
Some were depressed, some were stressed, most of them look ok.
Having compassion on them, I offered "Come, let's go to home together"
Some followed and some replied "It's okay, you go ahead"
So now we walked together
we were glad to have company
we are just happy to be able walk together
We often shared what are we going to do when we reach home
We often shared how we are going to encourage more people to join us
Sometimes we fell
Either because we trip or got distracted and look sideways
We helped each other up, tend the wounds and moved on
Encouraging each other we are walking closer to home
As we walked on
Some gave up because the journey was too long
Some gave up because they fell too many times
Some gave up because they find the sideways more interesting
Some gave up because there was a lack of company
Some gave up because there was no one there to tend their wounds when they fell
Some gave up because it was less tiring to stay than to walk
Most walked on without encouraging others to join us
So I puffed up my chest and moved on
Critical of their actions, in my heart saying "they shouldn't have done this"
I thought I was right.
I was really right! They got it all wrong and messed up!
Rather than to encourage them to move on
I kicked and toss them aside, critising them "you should have known better!"
It was the truth and it did set them free
But I hand them in a way like a bowling ball and force them to swallow it down
It was so hard to swallow, most of them never returned
I should have handed the truth to them like pieces of fishball
It was a point of no return
No amount of words or prayer could return them back
They remember the details with their mind
And bury it with their heart
People follow you home easily while they are young
It was easy to encourage people to follow me home when I was a youth
It was alot harder now, because as people grows older, they are set in their ways
I should have done the right thing then
And not waited until now
If anyone walking with me were to critise me and said "You deserve to die for what you've done!"
With tears in my eyes, I would reply "You're right."
"That's why today I'm writing this to people reading this so that no one would make the fatal mistake like I did"
Today, I fell. In fact long enough for maggots to grow and infest my wounds.
But I didn't get treated like what I deserved: Condemnation
I would give a final reply "I got what I never deserved"
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Friday, July 4, 2008
11:48 AM
Due to amounting pressures by my fellow brothers and sisters to update...this is to wet your appetite.
Well, I've been playing computer games (heroes of might and magic, diablo), rested quite well, played into midnight. I was in my past, returned to my past. A past that I should have let go, a past that I should not have returned to.
It has been for a week already.
Sounds like I have a good rest huh? Quite the opposite, I've to compromise alot of things along the way - exercise, work, studies, ministry, family, even my daily meals, I ended up even losing the closest friend I ever have.
Computer games is really my Achilles heel. Once I pop, I never stop. Nearly everyone I know can asert self-control in this area. How I wish I can do the same! Must my weakness and what I like match like a couple? I gotta find something else to replace this old habit of mine.
Some things that haunted me for years and I never understand - Like the children of Israel out of Egypt, they longed to go back! Once I broke free of this habit for nearly a year, I went back again! Knowing it was wrong! WHY? I'll never understand WHY!
Well, I finally decided today this is going to end. Going to restore back what I lost. Of course there are certain things that you could never recover, trust broken is one of the hardest thing to restore.
Well...let's move on from here...
Oh...I forgot to add:
Yesterday I got an sms from one of the teachers handling my kids.
"Well done! My kids say they love you! You made difference in their lifes!"
That made my day, that was the trigger that turned me away from my computer games.
Power in encouragement? You bet.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
