No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...

During the whole of FOP, the service itself was impactful, the message was powerful, the praise & worship was wonderful and finally the presence of God was beautiful.

In the midst of all the excitement. Something caught my attention, and left an deep impression in me . I saw a group of youths (about 7 people), their arms around each other shoulders jumping and praise God together. They didn't let go until they move forward to the front(towards the end of the SVC).

I was...a little jealous and at that moment, I had some flashbacks in my mind.
I was with our own group of friends, during previous years FOP, we would have our arms around each others shoulders jumping up and down. Saying how we want to serve God together in our generation. We don't have alot, not in education, not in wisdom, neither rich or famous. We are just happy, love God, trying to get the bible right(haha...)
Now...we all went our ways, didn't know what happened to the rest and some left. It was very sad, but still I must go on. The people out there still need Jesus. For awhile, I thought maybe we could do that again, it'll be wonderful isn't it? But nah, it probably wouldn't happen again.

I've been thinking alot about my future and planning. My dad is in his 70s & my mum in her 60s. I need to save up and prepare should they go. They hold tightly onto traditional values, thus, they don't have insurance cover. Plus, I couldn't afford for them. By the time I could work, probably no insurance would want to cover them.
Even if I could earn 2k/mth with very very minimal spending. I could only save up to 10k in a year. Looks like I'll be single for a l00ng l00ng time. I just don't like the idea of having my better half to carrying an additional load of financial burden although the saying goes "going through thick and thin together". Well, this is the 'best' plan I can think of. God always does far above and beyond what I can think of imagine.
Actually, I don't mind being single for the rest of my life too. Which means I can fully focus on missions without any family responsibilities. Having a wife to relate to is just a bonus to experience heaven on earth. As long as I can see revival in TP in my lifetime, I don't care who leads it. I just want to see it. That's enough for me, the rest is a bonus due to God's grace :)