I'm faced with a similiar situation, I'm not saying I'm going to die, but in a weeks time when sch re-opens, I'm left 4 mths in sch. 4 mths left to make a difference, 4 mths before I bid TP goodbye. I really really REALLY want to know, if my previous prayers for the sch, what would be the result of it? I really really REALLY want to know, by consistantly praying for the sch for 4 mths, what would be the result of it?
I stand corrected.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Saturday, October 4, 2008
12:50 AM
Matters of the heart are just so hard to understand, I always try my best to explain to my friends. Instead of listening to the whole story, I got cut inbetween and they assume the rest of it.
Recently people are asking me "am I attached?". I'm single and unavailable, because I'm too busy for BGR, I still want to focus on working towards my personal dream of TP revival, I'm unwilling to go into relationships now because that would mean I need to devote more time to her, and less time for everything else. Unless of course, she fully supports this dream.
I honestly do not mind to be single for the rest of my life. It isn't because I do not want to taste heaven on earth, but rather I'm too lazy to care for family, children, family financial problems. With less of those problems, I can do more for God. Of course, I'm not overlooking the benefits of 2 people running the same vision. I know your thinking "what kinda christian are you?" but hey, at least I'm honest with myself and don't resort to lying to win your heart.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
Friday, October 3, 2008
12:07 AM
So many the times, we encounter choices in our life. In the game, Chrono Cross I played long ago, said something that really impaced me. "You make a choice, at the same time, you elimate yourself from making other choices!"
Is that true? If you made the wrong choice, you wouldn't be able to go back that moment to make the right choice. If you made the right choice, you'll be glad that you didn't go back and made the wrong choice then.
Makes you think isn't it? When you are serious about life, you tend to think all kinds to things. Yes, I'm thinking how can I maximise the time I have on my hands. To maximise my time for work, evangelism, family, friends, God. I haven't really got time for myself, that's what I found out. To keep going along this line is dangerous of course, my needs of my soul is not met. I can never love God with all my SOUL, all my heart, all my strength. Honestly, I do not mind, I just want maximise every single mili-second to pray for people, rest, seek God's face. Probably also because my time in temasek poly is getting shorter and shorter each passing moment that drove me to desperation.
I wouldn't have another chance again. this time I'll finish it well. I must.
No matter how complex life is...
I really just want a simple life...
